貧乏留学日記 in Australia

貧乏留学生の奮闘日記   

183 days

I entered the massage school last week.
Everything is English So It's very difficult to understand a lecture.
I thought that I need review and prepare for a class.
I'm learning Anatomy and physical health now.
I didn't know what the theacher was saying....
I've got to keep up with this class.
It's won't be easy, but I will get a qualification of masssage somehow.

By the way, My new housowner took us to the market where can drink and eat by taxi.
He treated us everythings So I didn't pay any foods and drinks.
He bought us a tequila.
It was second time of my life to drink it.
I got a little tipsy...
I had a great time there.
I wish I had spoken English more...
If I had had more speaking skills, I could have talked to Australian more.
I need more practice.

I'm going to the burleigh heads hill to climb with my friends today.
I could hardly go there because It was a littele bit far from former house.
but now, I can go there anytime.
I'm likely to love living on Gold Coast more than before!!

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179 days

I would forget that stupid moment because It doesn't have any profit of my life.
I should forget it.

I've been living this house for 5 days.
I'll get used to live in.
I'm living near the sea.
the new house which I feel my grandparents house.
I want to see the sunset and sunrise someday.
I'm recovering a motivation to study English So I'll study every day.

I have a dreams to take my parents to Hawaii when my father retire from the company.
I do want to do!!!
That's why I have to study hard and work in Australia over the next few years.
It must takes high cost doing that but I want to be nice to my parents because only my parents in the warld.

My mother has a menopause and fight such a disease over the last few years.
She couldn't take a car and drive herself because she got motion sickness and hot flash.
She also take some medicine to suppress a symptom everyday.
little by little, She is getting better than before So she can drive a car herself.

It's difficult to take a plane now.
I hope to get better more.

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day 178 days

After I borrowed the bathroom, former landlady started talking about room contract.

the house doesn't include a electricity and wi-fi So it was deducted from the deposit.

unfortunately, I didn't clean the house properly because I was very hurry up before I left the house.
We have a routine to clean the house every 3 weeks.

I usually did very completely.
However, I didn't that time...
So the landlady complained about that and she told me that I did clean the house instead of you.
So she deducted the clean's wage from my deposit.
my deposit was only $90.
First, I've paided it $320.
I tought that was nonsense..

I did advertise my room instead of her because she didn't enough time doing that.
Then, I didn't say any complaine to her because I'm a japanese.
I have a good conscience.
If I were her, I won't definitely do like that.
Her made me a bad day...
I went away from the house not to say anything and not to look her in the eyes.

to be continued...

177days

I moved here the day before yesterday.
moving was nightmare...
I had a lot of accident....

To begin with, New landlord was going to pick me up to bring my stuffs but we missed each other so I had no choice but to moved there by myself.

I riden a bicycle to new house that it takes about 1 hour.
I was so exhausted..
After that, I backed home by tram and bus to bring other stuffs.
I set off from former house by taxi.

When I arrived new house, I realised that the driver puted flatmate's stuffs the taxi mistakely...
That's why I had to retrun it to the former house all the way...

I went former house to retrun it yesterday.
When I've arrived house, the landlady had shown her house to the japanese girl who is looking for the room.
I borrowed a bathroom because I got a diarrhea....

To be continued......

172 days

Hi everyone
I'm ★, It is the last day to come to inforum and
to meet my teachers and friends as well.
So I'm feeling really sad and nervous because I'm not good at give a speech. I just try.
can i try this on?? Do i look ok? thank you.
First,I'd like to say thank you to teachers, all staffs, and classmate, my friends.
Studying abroad has been my dream since when I was a hight school student. So finally dream came true. it was a big desition of my life because I quited job, I don't have enough money to live on, I also don't have connection. So I was very worried about this before i came to australia. But now,I've met alot of foreign friends and japanese friends as well. and I had a precious time in inforum.I never forget this experiences.
any way ,thank you for every thing!!
See you again!!

171 days

I've been living on Gold Coast for 171 days.
I'm going to graduate from the language school 2 days later.

 

Recently I don't feel like doing anything.
So I rested the school these days.
I've never absented the class before.
It was a first time.
I need to rest because I'm worried about a lot of things such as my English skills and next school.

 

I decided to return to japan temporaly only 5 days in April to maintin my study motivation and eat prenty of japanese foods and meet my family or friends as well.

Some of my friends recomended me about return to japan because I was nervous about entering new school.
My friends was encoureging me So I'm getting better.

 

I'm moving this saturday near next school.
The new house which is quite dirty and it might appear some cockroach in my room.
If I move, I need to clean my room prompt.
I'll get used to live in.
what more, my friends also live there who is going to same school.

it's good opportunity to live together because she have already known well about school.
I would learn from her a lot of tips.

 

By the way, I have to prepare a guraduation speech until Friday.
I haven't made it yet.
It can't be easy to give my speech in front of other students because I'm not good at it.
I'm still struggling in speaking English.
I don't get use to it.

However, I've been studying here almost 6 months.
I can't escape from that because it contain with the class.
If I do it, I would have more self-confidence.

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Day 118

ご無沙汰です。

気づいたら118日です。。

 

最近は、英語を話したくない、誰とも話したくないという

状況が続き、今週は全く勉強していません。。。

 

毎日日本のドラマを見ていました。

 

こっちまで来てなにをやっているのだろう、、、

という状況ですが、今の私には必要なことでした。

 

語学学校に通い4か月が経ちますが、

自分の英語力のなさに毎日落ち込み、焦り、

負のジレンマです........

 

すべては自分の努力が足りない。

 

バイトも初めて1か月たつのかな、、、

もっと日本でお金を貯めて、勉強に遊びに集中できる

環境の中での留学にしたほうがよかったのか?

これでは本末転倒でないか。

お金が無いから遊びにいけない、

毎週パーティー三昧の若い子をみて羨んだり。

 

あれだけ日本で強い意志を固めてきたのにも関わらず、

本当にこの選択でよかったのか?

なーんて考えてしまったり。

 

人間はないものねだりだなーと。。

日本で海外に憧れてこっちでの生活を選択してきたけれど、

時々OLしていた頃が懐かしくなったり。

 

一週間頑張って働いて、金曜日にコンビニでお酒とおつまみ買って、

家飲みしていたあの頃。

そんな小さなことが幸せだったなー。

 

もがいて、悩んで、あれだけ早く辞めたいと思っていた仕事も、

今ではあの環境で仕事させて頂けたこと、

本当に有難いことだったなと手放して分かりました。

 

何を考えてるんだか.....

そんな考えて悩んでいる暇があったら、

少しでも英語の勉強を....

 

最近は自分に甘えてしまっています。

今年も残すところ1か月弱。

頑張っていこう。

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