Day 118

ご無沙汰です。

気づいたら１１８日です。。

最近は、英語を話したくない、誰とも話したくないという

状況が続き、今週は全く勉強していません。。。

毎日日本のドラマを見ていました。

こっちまで来てなにをやっているのだろう、、、

という状況ですが、今の私には必要なことでした。

語学学校に通い４か月が経ちますが、

自分の英語力のなさに毎日落ち込み、焦り、

負のジレンマです........

すべては自分の努力が足りない。

バイトも初めて１か月たつのかな、、、

もっと日本でお金を貯めて、勉強に遊びに集中できる

環境の中での留学にしたほうがよかったのか？

これでは本末転倒でないか。

お金が無いから遊びにいけない、

毎週パーティー三昧の若い子をみて羨んだり。

あれだけ日本で強い意志を固めてきたのにも関わらず、

本当にこの選択でよかったのか？

なーんて考えてしまったり。

人間はないものねだりだなーと。。

日本で海外に憧れてこっちでの生活を選択してきたけれど、

時々OLしていた頃が懐かしくなったり。

一週間頑張って働いて、金曜日にコンビニでお酒とおつまみ買って、

家飲みしていたあの頃。

そんな小さなことが幸せだったなー。

もがいて、悩んで、あれだけ早く辞めたいと思っていた仕事も、

今ではあの環境で仕事させて頂けたこと、

本当に有難いことだったなと手放して分かりました。

何を考えてるんだか.....

そんな考えて悩んでいる暇があったら、

少しでも英語の勉強を....

最近は自分に甘えてしまっています。

今年も残すところ１か月弱。

頑張っていこう。

Day 71

How time flies!!

I've been living here for 71 days.

I can't believe....

By the way, I got a massage job.
To be honest,I wanted to work in restaurant.
But It was really difficult for me because many japanese people looking for same job like me.

So I changed my plan,I looked for the massage job.
I picked up some massage shop and closely examined because some shops are sexual.
eventually I narrow down the shop to 2,I got a job.

I'm training at the moment how to massage.
It's difficult for me because this is first time do massage.
But learning new things is very interesting.
If I get a massage skills, I can cure a lot of people who have stiff neck and backache.

I'm not used to massage so I have muscle pain.
But this is what I want to do.
the purpose which came to Australia is learning massage.
It's a great oppotunity.
I have to memorize the procedure of massage and have to use a whole bodys to prevent damase my arm.
I only practice again.

I don't like study using some English text.
I thought today that learning English from Youtube is really interesting.
I can listen to English a lot of type.
So from now on, I will use it every day !!!

I have to do many things tomorrow.
Doing laundry, Doing make a lunch box four worth.
I go to bed...

Day 65

オーストラリアに来て3か月目突入してますが、

自分の英語力が上がっている気がしません....

すべては自分次第。

周りに流されることなく、

掲げた目標を達成することに集中します。

え～っと、話は変わりますが、

オーストラリアに来て何が恋しいかというと

日本食です。

毎日自炊生活ですが、

誰かの作ったご飯が食べたいです。

そして日本のビールが飲みたい。。

節約のため、酒飲んでません.........

ただ、仕事が決まったので

余裕がありそうならちょいちょい飲んでいこうかなと。

週に250$稼げれば、こっちで生きてけます。はい。

頑張ります。

当分は旅行なんてできないな～なんて思ってるんですが、

Byron Bayに行きたくなってしまったので

沢山稼いで、来年語学学校を卒業した次の日に

４日間くらい行けたらな～なんて思ってます。

$300位あればいけるかなぁ。。

では。

62 Day

Recently,I'm just looking at job website many times.
I try to contact to manager but it doesn't reply from a shop.
How difficult...

If I got a job,I would enjoy this life..........

I had a job interview after school.
But,the shop which still doesn't open.
I didn't know can i earn money.

I try to contact other shop.

Day 59

I don't get a job yet.
I don't mind...It's false.
I decide that I definitely get a job until 30 october.
If i don't get a job until next month,I won't live on Gold Coast.
I have to go back japan because I haven't money.
I can't rely on my parents.I can't.

I'm going to look for a job on wednesday.
It's my day off So I give out my resume to some shops on foot.
Getting a job is so difficult for me.
I think so difficult it much more than I expected it.
I thought easy before but I'm facing that problem.
One of shop offered me a job but wage was so low.
Although It was lllegar wages.I decided I don't work that shop.

I want to work in japanese restaurant because i can get a oppotunity to talk to customer.
It's necessery for me.
I never give up.

Day 56

I could level up class.
Well done.
but,I didn't understand contents about tests.
I have to study hard more than before everyday.
I handed over my resume to some restaurant near school after school.
It's not probably reply because i don't have experiense and English skills...
It's too difficult to find a job more than Japan.
there are a lot of job offer in japan.
If it's part time job,It will can get easy.

By the way,I'm going to talk about yoga today.
I have been doing yoga for two years.
When i lived japan,I went to hot yoga class a week.
Doing yoga is the most relaxting the way for me.
If I graduate the massage school,I will go to india to learn yoga.
After that,I'm going to travel around the india.
It's my plan for the time being.
Thinking about future is really exciting So I can't stop it.
I believe that it's good for me.

What shall i cook for dinner?
I'm fasting tomorrow because recently I have eaten a lot of food.
I need to clean my stomach.
I won't eat any food with the exception of water.
I can do it!!!

Day 55

I had exam today to level up.
It was too bad bacause I didn't understand every things about question.
fortunately,we can all level up If we are attended all class.
I don't know that this infomation is true or false.
I'm feeling release from exame even though it's too bad.

We're having a party tomorrow afternoom in the school.
I'm really exciting.

By the way, I decided to work a massage shop because i don't have enough English skill yet.
I realise that I can't get a restaurant job.
I have no restaurant experirnse....
Finding a restaurant job is to take a lot of time.
I want to get a money as soon as possible.
I'm going to a massage school after graduation.
So it's good for me as learn massage.

I promis to talk to foreigner at the school tomorrow.
I lack conversation to other people with the exception of japanese.