day 178 days

After I borrowed the bathroom, former landlady started talking about room contract.

the house doesn't include a electricity and wi-fi So it was deducted from the deposit.

unfortunately, I didn't clean the house properly because I was very hurry up before I left the house.
We have a routine to clean the house every 3 weeks.

I usually did very completely.
However, I didn't that time...
So the landlady complained about that and she told me that I did clean the house instead of you.
So she deducted the clean's wage from my deposit.
my deposit was only $90.
First, I've paided it $320.
I tought that was nonsense..

I did advertise my room instead of her because she didn't enough time doing that.
Then, I didn't say any complaine to her because I'm a japanese.
I have a good conscience.
If I were her, I won't definitely do like that.
Her made me a bad day...
I went away from the house not to say anything and not to look her in the eyes.

to be continued...

177days

I moved here the day before yesterday.
moving was nightmare...
I had a lot of accident....

To begin with, New landlord was going to pick me up to bring my stuffs but we missed each other so I had no choice but to moved there by myself.

I riden a bicycle to new house that it takes about 1 hour.
I was so exhausted..
After that, I backed home by tram and bus to bring other stuffs.
I set off from former house by taxi.

When I arrived new house, I realised that the driver puted flatmate's stuffs the taxi mistakely...
That's why I had to retrun it to the former house all the way...

I went former house to retrun it yesterday.
When I've arrived house, the landlady had shown her house to the japanese girl who is looking for the room.
I borrowed a bathroom because I got a diarrhea....

To be continued......

172 days

Hi everyone
I'm ★, It is the last day to come to inforum and
to meet my teachers and friends as well.
So I'm feeling really sad and nervous because I'm not good at give a speech. I just try.
can i try this on?? Do i look ok? thank you.
First,I'd like to say thank you to teachers, all staffs, and classmate, my friends.
Studying abroad has been my dream since when I was a hight school student. So finally dream came true. it was a big desition of my life because I quited job, I don't have enough money to live on, I also don't have connection. So I was very worried about this before i came to australia. But now,I've met alot of foreign friends and japanese friends as well. and I had a precious time in inforum.I never forget this experiences.
any way ,thank you for every thing!!
See you again!!

171 days

I've been living on Gold Coast for 171 days.
I'm going to graduate from the language school 2 days later.

Recently I don't feel like doing anything.
So I rested the school these days.
I've never absented the class before.
It was a first time.
I need to rest because I'm worried about a lot of things such as my English skills and next school.

I decided to return to japan temporaly only 5 days in April to maintin my study motivation and eat prenty of japanese foods and meet my family or friends as well.

Some of my friends recomended me about return to japan because I was nervous about entering new school.
My friends was encoureging me So I'm getting better.

I'm moving this saturday near next school.
The new house which is quite dirty and it might appear some cockroach in my room.
If I move, I need to clean my room prompt.
I'll get used to live in.
what more, my friends also live there who is going to same school.

it's good opportunity to live together because she have already known well about school.
I would learn from her a lot of tips.

By the way, I have to prepare a guraduation speech until Friday.
I haven't made it yet.
It can't be easy to give my speech in front of other students because I'm not good at it.
I'm still struggling in speaking English.
I don't get use to it.

However, I've been studying here almost 6 months.
I can't escape from that because it contain with the class.
If I do it, I would have more self-confidence.

Day 118

ご無沙汰です。

気づいたら１１８日です。。

最近は、英語を話したくない、誰とも話したくないという

状況が続き、今週は全く勉強していません。。。

毎日日本のドラマを見ていました。

こっちまで来てなにをやっているのだろう、、、

という状況ですが、今の私には必要なことでした。

語学学校に通い４か月が経ちますが、

自分の英語力のなさに毎日落ち込み、焦り、

負のジレンマです........

すべては自分の努力が足りない。

バイトも初めて１か月たつのかな、、、

もっと日本でお金を貯めて、勉強に遊びに集中できる

環境の中での留学にしたほうがよかったのか？

これでは本末転倒でないか。

お金が無いから遊びにいけない、

毎週パーティー三昧の若い子をみて羨んだり。

あれだけ日本で強い意志を固めてきたのにも関わらず、

本当にこの選択でよかったのか？

なーんて考えてしまったり。

人間はないものねだりだなーと。。

日本で海外に憧れてこっちでの生活を選択してきたけれど、

時々OLしていた頃が懐かしくなったり。

一週間頑張って働いて、金曜日にコンビニでお酒とおつまみ買って、

家飲みしていたあの頃。

そんな小さなことが幸せだったなー。

もがいて、悩んで、あれだけ早く辞めたいと思っていた仕事も、

今ではあの環境で仕事させて頂けたこと、

本当に有難いことだったなと手放して分かりました。

何を考えてるんだか.....

そんな考えて悩んでいる暇があったら、

少しでも英語の勉強を....

最近は自分に甘えてしまっています。

今年も残すところ１か月弱。

頑張っていこう。

Day 71

How time flies!!

I've been living here for 71 days.

I can't believe....

By the way, I got a massage job.
To be honest,I wanted to work in restaurant.
But It was really difficult for me because many japanese people looking for same job like me.

So I changed my plan,I looked for the massage job.
I picked up some massage shop and closely examined because some shops are sexual.
eventually I narrow down the shop to 2,I got a job.

I'm training at the moment how to massage.
It's difficult for me because this is first time do massage.
But learning new things is very interesting.
If I get a massage skills, I can cure a lot of people who have stiff neck and backache.

I'm not used to massage so I have muscle pain.
But this is what I want to do.
the purpose which came to Australia is learning massage.
It's a great oppotunity.
I have to memorize the procedure of massage and have to use a whole bodys to prevent damase my arm.
I only practice again.

I don't like study using some English text.
I thought today that learning English from Youtube is really interesting.
I can listen to English a lot of type.
So from now on, I will use it every day !!!

I have to do many things tomorrow.
Doing laundry, Doing make a lunch box four worth.
I go to bed...

Day 65

オーストラリアに来て3か月目突入してますが、

自分の英語力が上がっている気がしません....

すべては自分次第。

周りに流されることなく、

掲げた目標を達成することに集中します。

え～っと、話は変わりますが、

オーストラリアに来て何が恋しいかというと

日本食です。

毎日自炊生活ですが、

誰かの作ったご飯が食べたいです。

そして日本のビールが飲みたい。。

節約のため、酒飲んでません.........

ただ、仕事が決まったので

余裕がありそうならちょいちょい飲んでいこうかなと。

週に250$稼げれば、こっちで生きてけます。はい。

頑張ります。

当分は旅行なんてできないな～なんて思ってるんですが、

Byron Bayに行きたくなってしまったので

沢山稼いで、来年語学学校を卒業した次の日に

４日間くらい行けたらな～なんて思ってます。

$300位あればいけるかなぁ。。

では。